December 2009

There didn't seem to be a whole lot to December. Most of it was a blur between working 50 hours plus a week and Richard not getting many hours. It seems no matter how we work things we don't get to see each other much. He was working over nights (Midnight to 8 am) and I was working my 3:30 to midnight, some days 8:30 am to midnight. Richard would sleep while I was up and be home while I was at work. At least the benefit to having opposing schedules is that we don't have to pay for a sitter, or day care. I am thoroughly opposed to day care just to work. I would rather downsize living and not work if it means I have to put my kid in day care. Kids aren't treated right in them no matter what anyone says. I do like that she would be able to be around other kids though. At least in December, she was able to start going to nursery. Yay! So she gets kid interaction at church now and loves it. 

Alton and Kassaundra watching Curious George

Back Yard looking out Kassaundra's window.

Look how deep the snow was.

Enjoying outside

We continued to go over to Richard's parents house for dinner on Sunday nights. It is time that they get to see Kassaundra and us and hang out a bit. Sundays are my only day with Richard, but I have learned how to share him. Sometimes I wish that I could be home on sundays so I could cook dinner for us, because I never have the chance too during the week because I am always at work. I feel like a failure at being a mom and wife quite a lot. However at this stage in our lives without my job we couldn't make bills, not even close. So I am trying to accept that this is temporary and I will be able to do what I want soon.

Eating a gingerbread man I made at my work party

She can get into the fridge on her own now. (that is a cloth diaper btw)

♪♫♪ She LOVES music ♫♪♫

Christmas came along fast, and this year I didn't get to have my Christmas Eve fiesta. I bought taco bell for dinner since I was at work, and dealt with it. It is so hard though, doing something every year my whole life, and not being able to have it. There is always next year. I always try to make a big deal out of Holidays, and Richard doesn't seem into it. I wish I could make him feel like a kid again so he could see how important it is to me. Christmas isn't even about the presents, but having fun and family and the spirit that surrounds it. I did what decorating I could do. I am sad that I could only find two of my nativities. I was however able to get mom a nativity for Christmas. I have bought her a nativity every year for I can't remember how long it has been. Almost 10 years now I think? This year I bought her a mother of pearl nativity carved in Israel. It is an ornament. It was so pretty. I want to start getting the Willow Tree nativity collection for her, but it will be a while before I can afford that one.

This is just funny.

Due to our black friday deals Christmas this year was plentiful. Kassaundra got a few movies, and a ps3 game. She got a couple of books and a baby doll. She is in absolute love with her baby doll. It is so cute to see her with it. She had a lot of fun unwrapping all the presents that I insisted on wrapping even though Richard thought it was a waste of time. We decided we weren't going to spend much on each other because of what we bought together on black friday. I went to Godiva and bought Richard gourmet hot chocolate, because he absolutely loves hot chocolate and we ran out of the good stuff so he was drinking swiss miss. There is nothing wrong with swiss miss except that over the years the quality has diminished and you have to have like 3 packets per cup to make it taste like chocolate. Here's to the economy...here here! Ugh. Richard apparently doesn't know how to listen because he bought me a PSP. The Assassin's Creed edition. Exactly what I wanted, but I wasn't going to ask for it. I had resolved that I would get it eventually. He was in so much trouble, but I couldn't get mad at him for it. It was perfect. And how he had kept it a secret I'll never know. Generally you can't keep anything from me. Later in the day we went over to Richard's parents house and we got to hang out with his family. Everyone was there this year. It was awesome. We even got some goodies. :)

Kassaundra helping to decorate the tree

In front of the tree Christmas Morning

Richard and his hot cocoa

Kassaundra and I opening her presents. She didn't want much help.

She has it handled

After Christmas we went to Bob's Store's Attic and bought some amazing furniture so we didn't have to sit on the fold up couch anymore. They are amazing. Like beyond amazing.

I wish that holidays would last forever. I can't get enough of family. I dread work because it pulls me away from family. For New Year's Eve I put together some stuff and took the chocolate fountain in to work. If we were all going to be there anyway we may as well be able to celebrate a little bit. I also had sparkling grape juice that I forgot, so I went home on lunch and grabbed it. The chocolate fountain stopped working for who knows why so I was grateful that I had my mini crock-pot to keep the extra chocolate warm, so we then had chocolate fondue. I took in fruit, creme puffs, pretzels and cookies. We celebrated the new year with a toast and watched the ball drop on our computers. I am grateful that we get CNBC on our computer. It makes for some entertainment at night. I wish they would add some other networks like CNN, or perhaps CBS? I was the fortunate one to get a call right before midnight. So I got to watch the ball drop while on a call. I muted it and said happy new year and toasted with everyone, and then went back on line and said happy new year to the guy who in return said, are you getting an attitude with me? I explained that the ball dropped and our call was now taking place in two different years. He wasn't amused. Poor guy, all alone on a holiday. Maybe no one cared, or he had pushed everyone away. I got to pass into the new year doing a loan calculation and going home to my babies asleep. I was grateful that everyone at work helped clean up the fountain mess. I half expected everyone to leave me a mess. They still keep asking me when I am going to bring everything in again. At least I know I brought some enjoyment to people in their lives.